6/4/12

Hey tumblr wassup!! Well where do I start….how bout by saying I’m tired AF. I’ve been doing so much work lately that it’s absorbing my life. I’m sore, tired, and I wish I could sleep so I could get my energy back, but I just can’t. I dream about different stuff every night, and I have atleast 3-5 different dreams lately but they all have her in it. I’m not complaining bout the fact that she is in them because that’s the only time I feel like life isn’t complete bullshit. Not gonna lie I miss her, but I think she will be happy over some time. I def don’t feel the same like I use to, but that’s life I guess. People are slowly fading out of my life, and I have no control over that. I’m also slowly starting to become a stranger to everybody. I don’t talk to anybody anymore, and I just do anything possible to stay busy I guess so I don’t think because that’s when I get upset. My phone has become strictly business, outside of that I don’t hit nobody up and when people do hit me up I keep it short then stop replying. I pray everyday that things will be alright regardless of what happens, and I believe that but it just doesn’t seem that way. What is a guy with a broken heart suppose to do….everybody tells me to move on, but they don’t know what I’ve been through with her. Even if they did and still told me to I just couldn’t…I LOVE her and that isn’t going to stop anytime soon. Space is what she needs though because she will forget about me in time, and hopefully the next guy treats her better than I did. I really can’t talk about this anymore though, because it tears me into pieces, but goodnight to all. <3